Today, you are going to learn a little more about why I am who I am and where I get my inspiration from.
I had a good childhood, an incredibly sweet and loving mom, two very protective older brothers (who would gladly beat up any boy that would look at me) and a sweet younger sister that I was very close to. I was independent and mature for my age as a teenager. I got my first official job at 14 (had to lie about my age to get it), bought my first car at 15, finished high school at 16, was going to college at 17 and got married at 18. Oh my GOODNESS, is that crazy?!? By the way, I do not recommend that for anyone!
Throughout my life, I have always had a very special person to encourage, teach, inspire and love me...it was my auntie Kathy. Her husband passed away when she was pregnant with her first baby, so she was a single mom and I was able to spend countless summers and holidays with her and her son Tyler. They lived in California and I lived in Utah, but she would have me come stay with her for weeks at a time. During those visits, she would make me feel like I was the most important person in the world to her (I realize now that she did this with all of her nieces and nephews). She taught me to be responsible for my actions, to be strong, to not be taken advantage of, to persevere, to delay gratification (her favorite term) to be emotionally healthy, to read self help books and most of all to laugh and have fun!
When I became a wife and a mom, she was always the one that I would get advice from...she knew what to do in EVERY situation. I was incredibly close to her and I knew that no matter what mistakes I would make she would still love me, be there for me and tell me how to fix it, even if I didn't ask.
About 5 years ago she moved to Utah, bought a new house and she wanted me to help her design and decorate it from top to bottom...of course I said YES! The idea of hanging out with her for a week, plus buying new furniture and decor sounded like heaven. Throughout the week of decorating, she said multiple times "you are good at this" and "you should do this professionally". She told everyone in the family and all of her freinds that she thought I should be an interior designer...of course I liked that idea, but I didn't think it was even a possiblilty at the time.
A few months after her house was complete and beyond beautiful, we found out that she had cancer. She has always had great strength and determination, so I was completely convinced that she would kick cancers ass...but for once in my life, I was wrong. She passed away 6 weeks later...It all happened so fast and I was devastated to say the least, but I also felt an incredible calmness about it. I knew she was finally with her husband again in heaven and she was feeling no more pain or discomfort.
Since her passing, I have had an intense desire to become more like her. After a long, challenging road of getting passed all of my insecurities I think I have finally figured out who I really am, what I can become and what my purpose is in this life. I make decisions based on what I feel is right and not what other people think I should be doing. It is a WONDERFUL place to be and I highly recommend it!
I know that God lives and loves me and I feel him guiding me in my life every single day. I believe that we all have angels that are constantly surrounding us and lifting us up when we need it and even when we don't. I know that my Aunt Kathy is one of my angels. She had so much encouragement and faith in me and I can now see how her hand has strongly guided me to the direction of Interior Design and writing this blog.
She will always be a huge part of my life and whenever I am struggling with a situation, I think to myself "What would Kathy do?" and I instantly know what she would say. I love and miss her dearly.
Thanksgiving 2008 - I can't believe how much younger I look only five years ago